{"id":326,"date":"2019-10-31T12:00:00","date_gmt":"2019-10-31T12:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/katrina.effexhost.com\/index.php\/2019\/10\/31\/writing-prompt-thursday-lies\/"},"modified":"2019-10-31T12:00:00","modified_gmt":"2019-10-31T12:00:00","slug":"writing-prompt-thursday-lies","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lifewithkatie.com\/index.php\/2019\/10\/31\/writing-prompt-thursday-lies\/","title":{"rendered":"Writing Prompt Thursday: Lies"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Name one thing that you have lied to yourself about. Why did you do this?<\/b>
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\nWow, this is a tough one this week. The first thing that pops to mind is a bit tough to write about, but since it’s come up twice today, maybe I’m supposed to share it with all of you.<\/p>\n

When I was 29, my ex-husband and I divorced after nearly ten years of marriage. After the divorce, I was broken. I had no idea of self-worth or even identity. During that time, I met a man online and for my 30th birthday, we agreed that I’d fly from Michigan to New York to see him. Everything that could go wrong with that trip did and I should have turned around and gone home, but I believed this man cared about me and I really didn’t want to spend my birthday being ignored and alone. I kept telling myself that I just had to get there and everything would be alright.<\/p>\n

I was wrong. By the time that I got there, I was exhausted. The airline didn’t have my bag so I had nothing other than the cute, dressy outfit that I had worn.  I’ll spare you all of the details, but that night was far from fine and I woke up the next morning, bruised and bleeding. Here’s where lie #2 comes into play. I was so confused by what had happened. Since we were entering into a new relationship, I wondered if I’d given off some sort of mixed signal. He did his best to convince me that everything was fine and that nothing bad had happened. I was there, I was lost and confused, I believed him. I had nowhere to go and calling someone to come get me never crossed my mind. I didn’t believe anyone would come if I did call…and I didn’t know anyone else in that area. That night, there was an attempt at it happening again, but when I completely disassociated, it wasn’t fun for him, so he stopped. The next day I flew home, confused by what had happened, hurting, and yet somehow looking forward to seeing him again. He was that good at manipulation.<\/p>\n

Why did I lie to myself? Because I believed I was unworthy of love, affection, and any kind of positive attention. Part of me believed that any attention was better than no attention. I’m not that girl anymore. I have boundaries. I believe in me. I’m proud of me. That makes a big difference.<\/p>\n

I hope you believe in you.<\/p>\n

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